Be your own personal god

Today, I got fired from the job that pays for my food. I can't cook, so I depend on the money, to keep emaciation at bay.

I am angry and pissed at myself. I'm also calm and accept complete responsibility for what happened. I do not blame anyone else.

Although, I must note that the last week has been very very weird, like someone put a voodoo on me to somehow terminate this job. I consider myself a model employee, and have always been very punctual and perfect on all counts and do my job excellently.

But, in the last week, I have been unnaturally late (15 minutes!), made mistakes with my paperwork, forgot some important things to bring to work and finally did not turn up for work and did not notify. I overslept. Stupid and insufferable.

That said, I accept complete responsibility. This is a freedom that cannot be expressed in tangible terms. It is an elusive, fuzzy conviction in the nature of reality itself. I am the master of my own life. Whatever reasons I'm happy is because I made myself happy. And, however strangely convoluted life has become, it is a conundrum of my own genius.

No regrets. It is important to learn the lessons that life teaches you, even though you didn't sign up for the damn course. But, no point in mulling over what has happened.

I may starve in the days to come. And I look forward to how I'll deal with that. Nothing can take away this experience from me. I own it completely.

In this moment, I could be feeling hunted. I have been treated unfairly. How could this happen to me?

I could subscribe to false hope (the bane of all existence, in my opinion) and rationalize my actions, absolve blame, write it all off and paint myself as a victim of circumstance.

I choose happiness. I accept responsibility. I decide.

Of course, I also choose to not choose guilt for exploiting the immense feeling of satisfaction I get when I look at my very mature response to the situation I'm in. :D

Everything happens for our own good. Nothing is cliché when it happens to you. :)